Sometimes when we see hope it seems all the more hopeless (aren't you glad I stopped by ). I know myself when positive things started to happen I began to expect more positive things and when they didn't come I got depressed and hopeless. We are in similar sitch's, you and I, and what I am finding is that I have to find myself and put aside what my looney tunes W is doing. That is starting to pick me up. I CAN'T allow her every mood and night out with OW to drive me nuts, I just won't allow that! I must be willing to let go and recognize that it may never come back if I have any hope of starting anew, with or without my W. One thing I've been thinking lately is that although nothing in this world is permanent and I can't control much of anything, I can control who I choose to love. No one can take that away from me, that is entirely up to me. I choose to love or not to love. She can't make me stop loving her. Maybe that's all there is but it has to be enough for now. Do something for you right now and really try to look for whatever good that can possibly come out of what is happening to you. How is this making you a better, stronger, more loving person? Somehow, somewhere you will come out of this on top. Well, that's enough of my non-sensical ramblings for one evening. I hope somewhere in there you find something of value. If not, just know I'm thinking of you, furniture must stick together. P.S. Maybe if we both just let go of hope that is when the good stuff will happen. The harder we hold on the harder they seem to resist.
). I know myself when positive things started to happen I began to expect more positive things and when they didn't come I got depressed and hopeless. We are in similar sitch's, you and I, and what I am finding is that I have to find myself and put aside what my looney tunes W is doing. That is starting to pick me up. I CAN'T allow her every mood and night out with OW to drive me nuts, I just won't allow that! I must be willing to let go and recognize that it may never come back if I have any hope of starting anew, with or without my W. One thing I've been thinking lately is that although nothing in this world is permanent and I can't control much of anything, I can control who I choose to love. No one can take that away from me, that is entirely up to me. I choose to love or not to love. She can't make me stop loving her. Maybe that's all there is but it has to be enough for now. Do something for you right now and really try to look for whatever good that can possibly come out of what is happening to you. How is this making you a better, stronger, more loving person? Somehow, somewhere you will come out of this on top. Well, that's enough of my non-sensical ramblings for one evening. I hope somewhere in there you find something of value. If not, just know I'm thinking of you, furniture must stick together.
