You must be reading my mind, i have been finding it harder and harder to get this OP out of my mind. To begin with when my H first told me he had someone else i thought of it in a positive way - i thought he might have this little fling, realise the grass isn't any greener and then get it out of his system and come home. But now i just keep imagining all the usual stuff, them together, him buying her sexy undies for christmas (my last christmas pressie from H was a maternity bra - sexy eh)!! I suppose that says it all really, maybe he thought of me as just a mum and not a wife any more. You are so right, i must stop obsessing about them together, it isn't going to change anything and will just make me feel miserable. You are also right about taking your R for granted. I am completely guilty of that. I assumed that because we had said our vows we would be together forever no matter what, and even if we were not giving each other love and affection just now it didn't really matter because we had the rest of our lives to make up for it. Isn't hindsight a wonderful thing - i would just love the chance to be able to give all that love and affection now.
I am feeling a little bit better at the moment because H has told me that he plans to stay with me for the first week when the baby is born and that he is really looking forward to the birth and being as involved as possible. This is a huge relief for me because i was worrying that he might not want to get too involved. I must do all the DB'ing i can while he is with me for the week as this could be my big chance to show him our M is worth saving. So any suggestions on how to impress him would be appreciated.
I really appreciate you taking the time to write, it helps so much to know there are people out there who can understand how i am feeling.
