I've watched your threads from the beginning. I admire your posts on this and others' threads.
I understand how you are feeling right now about your wife. I go there frequently with my H. At first it is a scary feeling, but I've learned that it stems from the normal ebb and flow of marriage, my emotions and just the experiences life deals us. When I get like that, I start praying for God to help me love my H. I mean really love him. I never feel like praying it but I do it anyway. Usually pretty soon I have that overwhelming loving feeling again. Of course the cycle repeats and I couldn't care less. But I have realized this is probably normal and is also probably how my H feels about me at times. As a Christian, I know you understand that we are all fallen and will never experience true happiness on this side. Contentment, yes, but lasting happiness, something to look forward to one day in His presence.
GodBless, BethJ
H 40
Me 40
married 15 years
5 children aged 2-11
Bomb 2-6-05
Now we are piecing, I think
