TL, I am not where you are with any ILY or ML, etc. but I can imagine I would feel exactly like you do, now that I read your situation and think through what that might look like over here at Chez Stepford. It makes a LOT of sense that you would feel this way, having mulled it over for a bit myself.
The first thing I thought (which is what you are NOW doing) is to NOT question her to pieces about this, it will only discourage her. And that you need to process this in MC with the safety net of that arena. I wish you were seeing C sooner. Perhaps you can call for a little 'emergency' advice before next week?
I am really excited for you in the Big Picture, but I think if my H actually DID what I've been wishing for (what you're not receiving), I would be skeptical and waiting for the other shoe to drop. Sadly. What a shame we cannot just 'love as if we've never been hurt'
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
