Last nite I was very tired and so was H...he gets points for initiating. Again, the same thing happened with the lack of O, so somehow I managed to ask him about it, and he said that the O'ing is easy for him ( ?); he was concentrating on my enjoyment, as it doesn't seem that I'm Oing, and he doesn't want to be selfish. He turned the tables back on me( is that the expression?). The truth is, a lot of the time I don't O, but I am truly not looking for that. He said he notices that when I O, my heart rate goes up, but he hasn't seen that lately. So it seems he wants me to O and I want him to O...it's confusing and I can't seem to decipher it all.
