Interesting, I just went back to my posts one yr ago, to see where I was at this time last yr. My father was in the hospital in early Nov., struggling with pneumonia and almost dying. I can't believe I forgot this. Well, in spite of being in fragile health he and my mom have held on for another year. I am so grateful. Many of you were so helpful through this...thank you.
Hubby and I were struggling along, working on the marriage, trying to reconnect sexually. He had gotten me a cute VS outfit which ended up being a flop and which emphasized the lack of validation I am getting in this marriage.
But pick up the pieces, I did...and work on things, well, I have given my all. I am more realistic that I won't see the kind of desire I was hoping for.
I feel a bit resigned but am moving onto acceptance, as this thread suggests. It's time for me to give the marriage project a rest. I sincerely feel I did my best.
I am not letting myself off the hook as a person...I still want to grow and be the best Journey I can be. And I will continue to follow along here. Just no more marriage expectations.
