Things have been going along quite nicely, probably due the fact that I have been relatively LD and able to just go with the flow. H has been initiating regularly, every other or every third day: I sense he has more confidence that he can take his body from 0 to 60 mph in small increments and will eventually get there. He has shown this pattern of desire first and then arousal. He went as far as whispering some dirty things to me while at a family dinner over the weekend. I miss my own tingles and wonder when they will return...my body does respond when he initiates, which feels good.
My main problem right now is that I can't seem to differentiate on the point that my H never gets to 30 mph, much less 60, before initiating. I know that if he were phsycially aroused prior to our intermingling it would majorly turn me on ( Light bulb: maybe this is why I am LD). I still want the validation or maybe the drama/excitement of visibly seeing his desire for me...it's most likely the validation. But it just doesn't seem to work that way for him/us. My feeling is there probably is too much water under the bridge for him to feel such outright desire...so I am back to accepting. We're doing good so I just have to say calm, but underneath I feel I am vulnerable to some new, exciting type of male interaction.
