Lost Gal, Thank you for the suggestions. It was helpful for me to come back here and pinpoint the troubled areas of my psyche. It felt good to express my desire to my H...I really needed to do that for myself, to connect to my sexuality on my timetable. I am also glad I had the sense to think of my H as well, to not overwhelm him, and to let him take charge. We ended up having a nice weekend. I am trying to find the right balance of self assertiveness and self control. I am trying to find a balance of my needs with his needs. I am trying,lol.
