Last night was wonderful! We went to Hollywood to see "The Lion King;" had dinner at the "Sunset and Vine Diner," watched celebs going to the Latin Grammy's down at the Kodak Theater.
The show was spectacular. It was so much fun -- although I started getting a migraine during dinner, but it didn't get really bad until we got home.
The most amazing thing, though, was US. We had a great time TOGETHER. Really together, you know what I mean?
My H was so relaxed and so much fun last night. When we left the house he told me I looked gorgeous. The way he sat in his chair at dinner, and the way he smiled at me as we talked -- the look in his eyes when he looked at me!!! He had that soft look to his eyes again -- the look of being with someone you really enjoy being with. The look that I haven't seen in a very, very long time. I probably would have cried if my head hadn't started hurting!!
During the show he'd either put his arm across my lap and take my arm and tuck it through his. During intermission, we spoke about Act I of the show, and he still had that same soft look (with a hint of a smile to his eyes) that he had during dinner. He rubbed my neck to try to help my headache.
There was no intimacy last night. I took medication for my migraine and went immediately to bed. H was whispered "good night. Love you." We both slept. Guess what? The evening was perfect!. We didn't need the physical intimacy to make it perfect. We both know that now.
I had an evening with my REAL H last night. The one I fell in love with so many years ago. For at least one evening, all the hurts of the past were forgotten and it was just the two of us again. It's been a long time since I've felt it's just been the two of us. No ghosts sitting by either one of us. No one else inside my H's mind diverting his attention from me. He was all mine.
I realize there is still a lot of work to be done so that the man I was with last night shows himself more often and finally decides to stay permanently. But having seen that man again, even for a short time, gives me the strength to keep going.
