Mattie, you and I are in pretty much the very same boat! 17th anniversary is Sunday. 2 "flings" and one EA/PA.
I had an emotional discussion about this w/ my c, as to what it all meant as far as what I'd been accepting and what I would accept in the future...and whether he could deliver.
One thing, either way, whether we work out or not, I'm getting restitution. Are you getting any restitution besides the avowals of love?
My H wasn't even giving the avowals but they are starting to emerge as I stand back.