There is so much fear on this board. We are all so afraid to say the wrong thing, look the wrong way, express our feelings, ask questions and get answers. Is this really the way it's supposed to be? In many cases, isn't this the reason many of us are here?
I'm so tired to tippy-toeing around my "depressed" H. If I want to ask a question I should be able to, and I should expect an honest answer. I'm tired of being afraid to bring up anything "bad" for fear of that look on his face and the sigh in his voice. I want, need, and deserve answers to my questions. I may be afraid of the answers, but I don't want to live with dishonesty anymore. I don't want to live in fear anymore. I just want the truth.
These erring spouses of ours have reeked such havic and destruction in our lives, and we are the ones who must say, "It's okay, honey. You weren't yourself. You didn't know what you were doing. You were sick. I forgive you." Bull. No matter what they were "going through" they still knew the difference between right and wrong; they still knew the pain they were about to cause all for their own gratification. They didn't care about breaking up their families. They didn't care about what their behavior would do to their children. They didn't "think" about the consequences. I simply do not understand that.
Guess I'm in an angry mode right now. Thanks for listening to my tirade. Maybe it will keep me from blasting my H later tonight -- then again, maybe it won't.