Thanks Muddle. I think maybe what I am going through is the realization that what I had hoped for really is dead. I am entering a new place in this sitch. Previously there was always something that I felt I could do...now there isn't (that may not be even true, but it is how I feel). That is very new and raw for me! It brings up all the thoughts about where I and my family are going. It is a frightening place and I can choose the detachment route (the healthy one you outlined) or leave in the best way possible. I believe this is a key time in my sitch. Thanks to you for hanging in there with me.
