This process has forced me to take responsablity for who I am and how I contributed to the point that my wife felt like she needed to talk with somebody outside of our marriage about our issues inside our marriage. I have come to realize that I was controlling, at the time I thought I was making the best decisions for the family, unfortuntly I did not let my wife particapate in those decisions. I also have a problem with my pride and ego by trying to always be right and defend my actions. I hope I now realize I am not perfect.
Two area's I am still having problems with are the following:
Showing my emotions - I am someone who keeps his emotions pretty much in check. I go by the philsophy that things are never as good as they may seem nor are they ever as bad as they may seem. This works fantastic in buisness and awful with relationships. I am trying to figure out how I can start becomming a comoplete person that can show and feel emotions to the people I am close to.
The second area is I found myself at times paying attention to the OM and what qualities he has that I do not. I need to focus on myself and strengthen and or fix the character issues that opened the door in the first place. I was wondering if anyone had the same issue?
I now realize that my wife and I are at different places in life. while I have been focused on financial security she has moved closer to gaining self respect, attention and to some degree trying to figure out the meaning of life.
I do not mean to ramble; however, the details of my relationship are so similiar to the others I have read. I am trying to put my effort and energy into fixing myself.
