Actually I shortened a lot of things....our congregation is very loving and will work closely with H...but at the same time to protect the "flock" if someone CONTINUES in a sinful course they are removed from associating...they can attend but they are not associated with....if is in line with the Bible teachings so he and I both understand.... but of course before such drastic measures would be taken the brothers will work closely with him and try and keep him in good graces so to speak....as will I and the kids even though this battle is really his own....
It is just so hard on me emotionally because I need to "feel" his love....the only time he can express it is when he is so totally drunk....and that is what we are trying to avoid....it just does a real head trip on me when he starts telling everyone in sight how much he loves me....how wonderful I am....how I am the most important person in his life....but then let him sober up and I feel shunned....and he can't understand it....he thinks it is enough that he is here....and maybe it is....but I am feeling emotionally starved....very confusing...
Which brings me to your most recent post on your side...I would like to email you as I don't want to say openly what I want to share with you on that....then if you feel that you want to share what I have to say you may C&P it...
