Still checking in on you Muddle. You're putting your good insights to use in your own sitch. I'm glad your aren't rising to her bait(s) nor getting emotionally wounded by what she says to you. So important, and oh, so difficult I would imagine, to get there. Good for you!
Yes, I do understand about the 'fake' feeling of decorating for the holidays, and knowing how far you are from the Norman Rockwell ideal. For the first time in 6 years, H was home for tree decorating, and it was kind of anticlimactic. This year, rather than pull everything out for the tree/house, I went thru the boxes and culled only the ornaments that the children had made or were significant (with photos), and my favorite "our first christmas" ornament from the M. All the other fancy schmancy stuff, I left in the boxes. I just wasn't up for the 'show', only the most important things. Not unlike the rest of my life. I like our tree so much this year, and it took a fraction of the time to decorate.
Anyway, I digress! Just checking in!
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
