Thanks for the prayers, Shelly -- I'll be praying for you as well.
Cat - I am leaning toward some kind of a "talk" after the New Year. We do both have access to postings of the joint account on line. All the money shenanigans are annoying. Money is a big sore spot with H - he has said that he has felt financially dependent on me, and didn't like it, thus he wanted to be "out on his own" for a while (yet he still spends most of his time at our house, not his apartment). For me, money has never been a big deal, but now, given our precarious R situation, I feel like I need to pay more attention and watch out for myself/my assets. I just hate having to think that way! Thanks for checking in on me - I appreciate the support.
Journaling: A small positive yesterday. I got a small hug from H and a thank you for my efforts to cook a nice dinner (rather than getting takeout) after a long day at work. H hardly ever initiates any physical contact, so it's a good baby step.
