I was such a crap employee for a long time after the bomb - lol! I just could not concentrate at all. Things are pretty much back to normal now and work is keeping me really busy, which is good.
My H just gave me a card from him and his d8 on my birthday last week. I think he doesn't want me to get the wrong idea that he might be changing his mind, so no present. I was dreading my birthday but funnily enough it turned into a really positive experience. I spent a lot of time with friends over the whole week and really felt very lucky and thankful for my life. I expected nothing from my H, so I couldn't be disappointed, but I know it's hard to do when you've got so much history together. I did look at my ipod and think, slightly sadly - 'hey, you're a year old today' as it was a gift from H last year.
You sound as though you're doing well. This limbo is painful and draining and so much about our WAS's and what they want, we're just left hanging on. You sound as though you still have some connection with your H, e.g. with the ML, which is very good.
Happy birthday for Sunday!
You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself. Galileo Galilei
