Haven't had much time to read or post in the last 5-6 days as work has been very busy. Also, almost 9 month old D is teething, so she has been keeping me up at night! Will try to get around to some other threads today or tomorrow to catch up on what's going on.
H has been home the last 2 days and nights. With the exception of 2 nasty comments (which I handled well, if I do say so -- things that might have turned into full-on fights in the past, but instead I just apologized, validated and then changed the subject), things have been pretty "normal" and we have been doing ok. We ML on Monday night even. And, he helped me with getting the kids bathed and to bed last night. Rather than being happy, though, I am waiting for the other shoe to drop at any time. I saw (he didn't hide this) that H requested checks be sent to him that could be drawn off of one of our investment accounts. He has previously talked about wanting to buy his own place rather than renting for long (this was a few months ago), and I had seen a business card for a mortgage broker, so of course, I thought maybe he is trying to set himself up to be able to make a down-payment on something. I didn't say anything about it. Then, last night he told me that one of his friends is interested in buying one of H's motorcycles (he has 2 right now), and if the friend does, H wants to buy a new, very expensive bike, which he would pay cash for. So, maybe that's what the checks are about. Who knows. I told him that the price that he and the friend have agreed on for the old bike sounded good. I also took a look at the new bike on-line and said I liked it (I do).
H has not asked anything about what I might want for my birthday (Sunday). He always asks me what I want because he never knows what to get me. He is leaving on a trip on Friday (will be back Sunday night), and I am assuming he won't give my anything or do anything before my birthday, and he hasn't mentioned going to dinner or anything for it. I am not going to say anything about it, and am going to try really hard not to care if he does nothing at all, which seems likely.
On the bright side, I am going out for a very nice early birthday lunch today with one of my girlfriends.
Thought I have been busy, I have not done a very good job really FOCUSING on work the last few weeks, and I really need to get with it. Sigh. I am just tired of waking up each day wondering if H is going to suddenly give me some horrible news.
