Journaling: Got back from LA at about 2:00 am on Wednesday morning. Both S3 and D8mo were in sleeping with H. S3 gets upset when I am not home, and the baby just doesn't like her crib very much. H had been shoved way over to the edge of the bed -- it was pretty funny, actually. I picked up the baby and went to sleep with her in the guestroom.
Yesterday, I worked from home in the morning, then H and I had our second "date" -- I thought it went well, though I talked more than he did. Still, I thought we had a good time. H didn't say anything one way or the other, but I resisted the urge to ASK him if he had a good time, or if we should set up another date, since that turned out to be a mistake last time we had a date. Maybe I will suggest we do something else in a couple of weeks depending on how things are going.
My birthday is mid-November, but I am sure H won't do anything for that. He is working on the actual day (so will be out of town), but I have no expectation that he will do anything before or after for me. That's fine, I guess, but I feel like he should get me something from the kids - S3 is old enough to "get" that you do special things for your loved ones on their birthdays, but not old enough to actually organize anything on his own. S and D "got something" for H for both his birthday and for Father's Day. I got NOTHING from anyone (except my own mom) on Mother's Day -- not even a "Happy Mother's Day", so I have to assume that my birthday will be the same.
H is leaving for work tomorrow, so I will have the weekend alone with the kids. He won't be back till Monday night.
Am still feeling calm generally, but anytime I let my mind wander at all I start feeling sick -- for all I know, nothing that I have done has made any difference and he still plans to D me.
