Hoping For A Miracle - New Here

[cat03]

wow!! and I thouth my 17lbs was a lot, you are amazing, you go girl! keep up the great job. I wanted to reply to something you posted earlier:

I don’t understand how he could have no feelings for me at all after 15 years together (9 years of marriage). But now he says he was never happy, never should have married me . . . If he was so unhappy, why in the world did he agree to have 2 kids with me? He didn’t even think he wanted kids at all when we got married (though he fell in love with each of them the moment he saw them). I see so many people here whose spouses have said similar things as my H is saying. I guess I should just back off and not say anything more about him going to his apartment, nor should I ask to talk about what he wants to do in our R.

My H said those things word for word, when in the middle of the mess I even found a note saying he wished he didnt' have any kids, this from a man who wouldn't put the kids down and spent half the time taking picts of them, they just rewrite history to support their craziness, NOTHING is their fault, it took my H months to stop blaming me, he told me he didn't see it was also his fault until much later, sometimes it takes something this awful for the other person to realize too that they had a LOT in the demise of the M.

It does boggle the mind to think that a while ago your H was sane, my H also threw a nice b-day party for me the month before he went bananas. My H also on the days he wasn't supposed to see kids NEVER called them nor would take them ANYwhere. The WAS have to put us as the bad guys and see us in the worst light to justify their feelings, my H also didn't have feelings for me for the longest time, but he is back w/me now and veeeeeeeeeery slowly he has warmed up to me again, we all forget the love isn't in the falling, it is in the staying.

Hope you get some rest, you poor thing, an infant is such work and you also seemed to work very hard, hang in there))))))