Thanks for responding. Not getting much feedback. I haven't had much luck on the posts in the past, so I quit coming to them. I have just started counseling and hope that will help me. I want to tell him to take a leap, but know I don't mean it. I am tired of this - for sure. I am extremely tired of us discussing it. I can't win him back like this. Sometimes, I think letting him come home and GALing would be the best thing, if I can do it. I am also working hard on my faith and praying often.
We actually got into a spat tonight. He was going to meet me for coffee and casual conversation. Before he did, he shared with me that OW called him from out of state at work. She called to tell him that he should come home, spend time with the kids, and they couldn't be together. Of course, she had text him that 5 days ago before she left the state. I know it was an excuse to hear his voice. They discussed how they were hurting and missed talking, but they can't be together. They need to do the right thing and what God would want. (A little late to be thinking about God---) I was very upset and shaking. I knew she was in his head for the night and didn't want to compete. I felt like if we met we would argue or talk about her. I didn't want to do that. I told him we would pass on coffee. He immediately told me how he never has been able to talk to me and it just proves we can't get along. I was trying to do the right thing. He said he wasn't coming home to stay for the weekend to be with the kids as planned. (He's asleep on the couch but may leave later...) Of course, it was all me in his eyes. He has become more hurtful and doesn't worry about how his comments will affect me. Sometimes, I think it would be better if it was done. But, I don't want to let go of our family and its future - plus I very much Love him. UGH!!!!
