LD people absolutely do not want their partner to become LD, any more than we want them to. They like the feeling of being desired and some even come to depend on it for their sexual identity. They may be confused about the rest, but they do not want an LD partner.
Secondly, you can't stop desiring sex because you are mentally preoccupied with the fact that you can't have it. This is human nature. If you woke up tomorrow in prison I suspect that your mind would be overcome with thoughts of freedom. That, and how to AVOID sex, lol.
Anyway, my hope for you is that you are able to fight through your fears and improve your M.
