Yeah I kind of suspected this all along, and when we used to fight about it, I'd point out that I suspected if she actually showed me some real attention, that wouldn't matter as much.
Frederick Buechner defines Lust as "the craving of salt by a man who's dying of thirst." I'd say that about sums it up nicely.
She and I now have made enough progress that we go out regularly and, well, 99% of our time together is either positive and fun, or at least positive. Almost no negative stuff, at least nothing between us. That's never been true in the entire time we've been married. We still have a long way to go and a lot of stuff to work through but it's not nearly as difficult as it used to be, or seem.
Heck now I just appreciate it so much when she looks at me even with a little sparkle in her eye and tells me jokes or something. It's that same kind of connected feeling you get when you meet someone new except we've had to work so hard to get here. That's really what it's all about.
You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. -- Inigo Montoya, 'The Princess Bride'
