Scheduling: A Help or a Hindrance?

[toughlover]

Did you ever determine what was causing your 'angerholism'?

Well, the main cause was simply my own bad attitude and immaturity that last well into my adult life, unfortunately. The stressors were mainly two:

1. instead of acting I spent all my time reacting to my wife, and she was being pretty selfish herself, and I wasn't getting what I wanted from her, and instead of handling it constructively, I fought fire with fire, and all that ends up doing is burning everything to the ground.

I handled this by detaching, by not tying my personal contentment to what I'm getting from my W at any given time, and by being the husband and father I want to, and am called to, be. All the DB stuff really, though I'm a Christian and I see most problems as spiritual problems, so the first step in our new life involved me getting right with God. She followed soon thereafter, but I did it for me.

2. Also found out in '03 that I was diabetic and probably had been for a long time. When my blood sugar gets high, it makes me way more angry and aggressive. It was like that for a while and made things worse. I never could understand where a lot of that rage was coming from, but it was almost more than I could control or bear, because for most of my life I tended to be very laid back and cool headed.