I mean we have to suffer spiritually sometimes. As soon as you see the red on S's face, take a picture. If you are with your kids more and take them places and interact with them, and do stuff with them around the house, they will see that it isn't true what she says about you. Are you letting them into your life? Do you work such long hours that you never see them? yes, I see that she is an awful person, but you have to rise above the crap she and her family fling at you. You are in a deep depression, it seems and can see no way out of it right now. Are you taking anything for it? I don't see how another w would do your frame of mind any good. It is adultery, hon, and that ain't right. I don't know what sin is the worst, unless it is to reject the salvation of Christ, but, except for that a sin is a sin to me, and all sins can be forgiven. You should try to stop being so afraid of her and her family. What is the worst they can do to you? Kill you? I doubt it. Make your life miserable? They are already doing that. Stop being so concerned with their souls, they know right from wrong, let God sort them out one day. You need to relax on that point, because they don't care anything about that at this point, and you can't shove it down their throats. Try to show some strength to her, don't go crawling away from her with your tail between your legs. She needs to see your strength. You said she becomes violent when she has a bad day, and has a temper trantrum.. How do these usually play out? Are you a captive audience of hers when she does this? Or could you just change one thing, by walking out of the room as though you had something that needed taken care of in another part of the house? Could you go ask the kids to go for a walk with you? Try something, I am serious or when you keep doing the same thing you will keep getting the same response over and over and over. You, know philosophy is all well and good, but it isn't helping you to do what you know you need to do. If you are unable to do it for yourself, do it for the kids, Just be a lion for the kids, they will appreciate it.
