I know, I know. I feel bad sometimes, especially now that I am writing as if I have some kind of answer. I have the answers that worked for me and many of them are directly from the books, others are not, and may just be due to quirks with me and my W, who knows.
I do owe a WHOLE lot of my success to OT. I didn't like the WAY she said some of the things she did but then again, that was largely due to my own discomfort with direct communication.
I am still not that good at it and find myself beating around the bush a lot. My old anger and P/A behavior have surfaced a bit here in the last week but the difference between now and before is that I now can recognize the "bad" behavior and instantly know how to correct it. I don't always DO it, but I know how and if there comes a time like this past Sunday when I act like an a$$, at least I know when to stop and how to apologize.
Mama, like you said before things turned the corner for me, I am SO waiting for you to have that breakthrough. I want it for you almost as much as you want it for yourself.
Please, keep the faith and keep growing. It's all you can do until he starts to REALLY turn, and I do think he will.
