The darkness does not endure!

[BeingMe]

The year is almost over, and Christmas is just around the corner. I am not ready, but it's going to be a quiet one, so not much to do, anyway.

It's been quite some time since I posted any updates. My D19 seems to be doing better. She says she has ended it with the older idiot boyfriend, but who knows if that is true. She lives so far away, that she can tell us anything, and we wouldn't know. (I never knew I would ever doubt the word of one of my children!)

On a personal note, I have found a job, and it's going okay. It's not fulltime, but that suits me. The only downside is that it's shift work, so I don't see H and D14 as much as usual. Still, it's good to earning some extra money.

H and I are getting on alright. There's no fireworks, but we have settled into a semblance of our old, comfortable, R. Not sure if that's good or not, but will see how things go. I seldom question anything he does anymore. I don't trust him 100%, but I don't mistrust him 100% either (if that makes any sense). I do trust myself, and that's an awesome feeling. I used to have so many self-doubts, rooted in my low self esteem, lack of motivation, and a feeling of boredom, and no excitement for the future. That has all changed in this journey. I am far more positive, have a more realistic self image, and I am excited about my life. Nothing is perfect, but as long as there is progress, then one can feel optimistic, and hopeful.

Hope y'all are having a wonderful Christmas season, and that the New Year brings you some hope for your sitches.