BeingMe - Hi! It's been such a long time since I've stopped by the boards but for some reason I decided to do it today. And I'm glad I did. You were one of the first people I connected with when I entered DBing. You were the ear to listen, the shoulder to cry on, the reason and the wall. I just want to make sure you know that. You are a very strong person (I know you often don't feel like one but just the fact you're still doing what you set out to is the proof) and you influence a lot of people that are looking for hope on this web page. I read your most recent link and I feel for you. Seems like you've been strugling with the decision of wanting to make yourself feel better vs making sure that everyone around you feels better. I think you need to realize once again that you can't make other people happy without affecting your own happiness. I think you have a lot to offer, your husband has been noticing that but you don't feel that it's enough after all the time that passed, the time filled with lies, hurt and deception. How about you sit him down and tell him how you feels. It seems that you're ready to take responsibility for your life (either with or without him) so the only difference will be - will that happiness be with him at your side or will he turn out to be who you susspect he is and take that as an opportunity to exit. Whichever one happens just know what - you're strong, you survived before, you sure as hell will survive again.
