The darkness does not endure!

[BeingMe]

Wow! My last thread lasted more than a year. I guess it's just one of those slow moving ones, 'eh! So, it's been more than a year, too, that my H and I had decided to reconcile and work on our M. There have been many ups and downs (although, not the rollercoaster ride during the post-bomb era), but we have endured so far. I got the title of my thread from the Lord of the Rings (extended version), the Houses of Healing, and the dialogue is between Eowyn and Faramir:

Eowyn: The city has falled silent. There is no warmth left in the sun.
Faramir: [approaching her] It is the damp of the first spring rain.
Eowyn: [looks up at him]
Faramir: I do not believe this darkness will endure.

I loved the book and the movies. So many life lessons to be gleaned.

Here are my stats again, just to orient those interested:
Me: just turned 49
H: 44
Married: 20 years
4 children: D26 (married with 2 children), Twins 19 (B/G), and D13 (about to turn 14 this week)
Bomb: May 2004
Reconciled: May 2005

I still struggle with trust, and have asked H to come up with a plan that he feels will help me in regaining my trust. He has suggested that we go into C again, and that we start planning our honeymoon (we never had one when we got married 20 years ago ... sad, uh!). It's a start, and we'll see where things go. We are experiencing a lot of stress at the moment because of choices our D19 is making in her life, and we are very worried. But, we are holding onto each other, and trying to support one another as we go through this time. So, for now, things seem to continue moving toward the light, and leaving the darkness of the EA, and the effects of the bomb, behind.

Will post more later - getting late.

Link to old thread. Link