Cobra, Good stuff! Thank you for taking the time to write this out.
You nailed H perfectly. You probably nailed me too but I'm so close to the trees that it's hard to tell sometimes, kwim? I don't remember ever 'needing' sex as a validation sort of thing--honestly I just like it and don't see why people wouldn't want to do it. Even as a teenager when all the girls seemed to be focused on how they fended this or that guy off, I thought Man what a waste. Don't get me wrong..I was a virgin too but I soooooooo wanted to give in and that seemed to separate me from my sisters-in-acne. Did I use it to soothe fears of abandonment? Not really. I did not use my sexuality to reel men in. That was not my style. I did (and do) have fears of abandonment but my method was more to pick men I was sure would not hurt me, rather than going after an unknown and then using sex to keep him in line. Re: my kids. I don't think I have changed wrt to them. I've always loved bonding with them during the day but am SO ready to bond with H at night. How he fits in bonding with everyone all at once, I'll never know.
I didn't realize I had flip flopped my statement on whether I think it's easier to give or receive but it doesn't surprise me. I'm a woman. We do that. Seriously, I'm not trying to be flip, I just am not sure what I may have said earlier. It has, historically, been easier for me to receive than give and if I said it differently, I apologize for the confusion.
Oh and happy birthday Blackfoot! Hope you have a good one. I too remember being 34. Oh yeah. That's cause it was last year, lol.
Friends, I'm exhausted today. My middle daughter knocked my older daughter's front tooth out; I left that out of my earlier post. Then BabyPot dumped over not one, not two but three bowls of tomato soup (mato poop to her) on the floor, etc etc. Cobra, if it seems like I'm all over the place sometimes, I swear it's this more than trying to be evasive. I just don't know what the frick I feel at any given moment!
Ah well, the day will be over soon and the kids had a grand ol time (with the exception of the impromptu dental work) so it's all good.
