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TODAY WE ARE GOING TO GET MY H TATTOO COVERED,,,,,, YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!
FINALLY,,,
I am so proud of myself for getting better at being me and I am doing much better,,,

I keep getting small talks in with my H and he seems to be receptive. I can see now how me being strong really helps my M,,,, he asked me for @ 2 weeks now to make appt to get his Tatro and I was not putting it off but I said when you are positive 100% sure you are going to make ( not reschedule due to work or other reasons)the appointment I will call,,,so yesterday I said hey you are not working tommorrow you wanna go get your Tatto and he sed YES. So I called and made it

yesterday he took me to lunch to one of our fave Thai restaurants and we even walked there it was Beautiful here yesterday.

And he knows I love to go on walks . I had a pleasant day. Last nite he started his usual getting angry stuff when he started talking about payroll and work so I calmy sed you need to stop talking to me like that,, he did not verbally abuse me but he was still taking out his frustration on me,, nope it stopped. I am really proud of myself AND him too of course.

WE had a nice convo this morning and we briefly touched on the "OW" subject. he claims he knew she was trash,, HHHHHHHMMMMMMMM, I asked then why were you with her,, in a way that clearly demonstrated I really could care less.
I told him well I knew from sources she is a &*(^ but I figured you said you knew what you were doing and it was up to you to see for yourself who she was and even though I knew who she was I kept it to myself,, you most likely would have sed I made it up and I just kept praying for you to get well.

So all in all I am doing better and it seems my H is too, he even admitted he needs to work on himself more.. WOW this is fantastic, I am so Happy right now.....

Somebody Pinch me....



I am actually proud of him too, it takes alot to admit the things he did this morning. Thanks to you all for your continued support ,, you have really helped me give myself permission to be me and to ask for what I need and want in our M.
God bless you all....