You let me go you told me you did not want to be with me anymore.
You broke my heart and left me for Dead. I did die, the old me the one who thought I could not survive without you. You are a part of me and a part of my being ,but yes I can live without you, but my life is ooooooooooooooo much richer when you are her by my side. when you are in my arms or I am in yours it feels so good ,so right.
You were in alot of pain and you tried to hold on but you were not strong enough and you tried to fill yourself up with her but she did not love you like I do and you did not love her at all like you have ever loved me.
Yes this was scary for you and you yourself let me know you were scared and still let me back in and are trying,,, I know you think you are giving 100% of you ,
....but I do not you could give me so much more,, for now I will accept the gift of you trying and being here, You mean sooooo mcuh to me and I will love you all the days of my life, but is is that same love for you that makes me want to help you grow to reach your full potentiial to live and see that life is so beautiful , you helped me a long time ago see how beautiful I was and so I will do the same for you now.
You do not see life for how precious it is at times, but I will help you to see with my eyes and show you how beautiful I see things and let you feel me and feel the love I have for you whether you can be relied on and whether or not you will ever hurt me again is not for sure but I will choose to risk it all and lay my heart before you and just pray that you will accept this Gift and also love it and not abuse it.
I am real and I am here and I am present, I am giving you all I have and I know that I am genuine,,
~ stop telling yourself you do not desrve to be loved and this will be so much more beautiful.
~ I have tied to let go of the hurt you caused me and I am doing better but yes I still have a ways to go,,, I will get there but I need to find that for myself. You can help some by being beautiful wih me but I alone can give mysefl this gift and it will take more time, I dunno how you could have given yourself to her. You are precious and you gave yourself to someone who was not worthy and sometimes I will admit it makes me sick,, but you are here and I am trying to keep forgiving you.
Can you be who I need you to be can you keep your vows and keep yourself true to me? I dunno ,but I pray you do.
I must keep forgiving you and forgiving me, and I hope one day I will be better. But for now I must keep working.... You let me down and even though you are here with me and have let her go I need to fully let her go and I hate her for being weak and leting you in so easily knowing you had a Family but I will keep working on forgiving her ,,, ,,,cause I have forgiven you but she is still here in my thoughts and in my brain and I want her to leave. She has no place in my LIFE and I need to make her Memory fade and I do not know how, It hurts sometimes still and I a m tired of her.... Please help me God I want her to stop living inside me... I want to let it go , when will I be truly FREE? ~God bless....
