Thank guys for checking in on me,, I swear sometimes it is you all and your positive energy that helps me to stay even stronger and smile alot more that is for sure,,

Santhony thanks for the compliment,,, I am trying hard and then I try even harder,, I feel like my H is ready to soften some but I dunno . He will be going to Mexico again during Christmas((( and my birtday is three days after UGGHH))),, I do not think I will go with him,, I am not sure yet,,,,


I do know it seems when he is down there he turns on me so I will remember to keep contact to a minimum but at the same time he is needy with me calling so as always he makes me feel like D*mned if I do and D*mned if I dont. But I can feel myself getting stronger and detaching more and being alot more assertive with him.... and I am enjoying it. It feels good to keep the focus on me and what I can do to improve myself and kep becoming a better person and letting him fall down and giving him space. When I focused to much on him in the past all I got was HURT!

So it seems to me that all my hard work has benefitted me and to some extent him,,, I have let go alot more,,, these past weeks since he returned and it seems the more I let go the nicer he is,, STRANGE?!
He has also decided to get on a health kick and I could not be happier,,(( I also encouraged him and explained that drinking was what was making him tired and lots of other nasty side effects)))) he was apparently drinking ALOT when he was in Mexico and he returned in bad shape and so yesterday I went to GNC to get him all sorts of stuff to help him get buff,, he knows I have alot of knowledge about health so he left it all up to me,,, I got him ST Johns Wort also to help him stabalize his moods ,,, I need to read a little more on it!!! ALSO I got him Omega 3 Fish Oil which I have been trying to get him to take for years but he would not,, They are also known to stabalize moods and help with brainfunction,,, and they have too many benefits to list here (( INSERT EVIL LAUGH HERE)))
HE IS GOING TO BE GETTING HEALTHIER AND HOPEFULLY WE WILL SEE A HAPPIER MORE STABLE PERSON as well. Well enough of me being silly,,,

He told me this morning he also wants me to start getting healty again too!! Thanks for the invitation exactly what I wanted to do too!
((( insert evil laugh again)))

Sheesh I am soooo funny this morning.... Yes you all do not worry I will keep my day job,,,, Hey I am easily entertained,, who would have thought taking supplements and getting fit would make me want to crack jokes????

Anyway I am doing well and MY H seems to be well too,,,

I just hope he gets better. And now it is my turn to help a close relative who is not doing so well in her M.
God bless...