Thanks Santhony,, I honestly did not know that WAS had an issue like this. I guess yeah the guilt of what he did would make him think I can get up and leave at any moment and he also said he always felt like he was not good enough for me,, so remember what I posted once.....

"love me most when I deserve it the least" ??

I will continue to do this cause apparently I made him feel so unloved and miserable and yet he chose to try again and come home,, so I will be the best me and love him regardless of his love for himself..

I hope I can help him to love himself more,, I HAVE grown soooooooooooooooo much and yes it does feel sooooo good.
I will continue to work on me and now I am planning on getting super fit so that Is my new gift to myself to get my body fit,, I deserve it ..... My birthday is in December so this is my gift to myself,, if I lose weight great but what I really want to see is a fit body....
Wish me luck...
God bless...