Light can you read this,, and I know you are not a mind reader but maybe you can help me unlock the mystery that is my hubby,, cause I forgot to post something he said during this day when he was professing his love for me that he said I am scared . I mean the obvious is he is scared I will "hurt" him again but maybe you can give me further insight...
when he said I am scared I replied dont be scared I will take care of you and love you.pretty vague but I was sort of dumbfounded when all this transpired... And sometimes when I say Dont worry I will take care of you he says you always say that and you never do...
....he said to me a week ago when he was angry that I CAN Change I just do not want to!! ....and of course he would not elaborate... Thanks sweetie...
DIVORCE BUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!! WE are no longer D'ing, these past two days have been absolutely fabulous my Husband stayed home from work, on Tuesday I had already planned to take my kids swimming, the heat here was bad. He was home and said "Sure go ahead",,, he has not said something like that in a very, very long time. If ever.He usually would rather we stay home. When the kids and I were gone he cleaned the whole house,!!!!???? He had stayed home cause he was a little under the weather.!!?? The kids had a great time swimming and playing with frogs at the pond. We were gone a little over 3 hours, upon my our return he came downstairs in a great mood, I gave him a hug and he was teasing me that I took soooooooooooo long and he missed me!?? ( he was talking in his cute pouty baby voice that just makes me melt) We had a great afternoon with the kids! This September will be our 10th Annivesary and scary but, I feel like it is going to be our best. He has also grown up sooooooooooooo much, he treats me the way I have always wanted. Like when he first met me and better! I could not be happier. Later that day when he and I were alone he proceeded to talk to me as though he were writing a Hallmark card,,, I wasn't sure if I was dreaming.
I think I had a little of my "Yeah Right" face on , ( If you remember he told me just a little over 2 weeks ago not to let his behavior confuse me we were still going to D) plus no tears (usually I am a highly emotional, sentimental person )
.... so he says to me "Ali, I am really serious about all this." to which "I reply " I know you are and if you keep reminding me how serious this is I will start crying." The most beautiful thing he said to me is "LET'S LOVE EACHOTHER FOR A LONG , LONG TIME." I told him " I will love you for all the days of my life..." He asked "You promise?" I said "I promise." I said "So, you are my husband?" he replied "Yes and you are my wife." He told me he was really happy. I make him happy and he thinks about me all day long at work...
( WoooooooooooooooooooooW!!!!!!!!!!!!!) What struck me the most odd was his concern regarding my feelings towards him. During our conversation he was not so sure of how much I love him?? which seems odd to me, or maybe he thinks cause of the pain he caused me???( Any thoughts on this?) I dunno, but I will have to continue to show him even more love. I thought I was pouring it on.!? He even talked @ building me a house. Somebody pinch me, no nevermind this feels good. After all the tears and heartache do not pinch me ,walking around feeling like I am dreaming is better than the dull ache my heart carried for awhile there. It was a pain I NEVER want to feel again an actual physical sensation in my chest, I never knew hurt like that before. I will spend the rest of my days making him happy, loving him. I also prayed soooooooooo much, Thank you GOD for this blessing. And thank you so much to you all for your support. I have worked really hard to grow as a person and Focusing on me has really payed off. So everyday I must be better than the day before, to have an amazing husband I must be an amazing wife. I will keep updating for awhile, I pray they all will be better and better, now I must keep the changes and polish them up so they are even better and continue to grow as a Woman and give my husband the BEST of me, no holding back... God bless you all and thanks again, you all mean alot to me. I couldn't have done it all by myself. Your support really made a difference and the book helped me to let go of alot of things that were not working for me and helped me focus on me. Thank you MICHELE WEINER-DAVIS FOR GIVING PEOPLE THE TOOLS TO SAVE THEIR MARRIAGE. My life will never be the same, this "Second Chance" will not ever, ever be taken for granted. My family means the world to me and my husband is my best friend, lover and partner for life. I feel so, so blessed. God is good. God bless...
