" When you're down to nothing, God is up to something."

My friend sent this to me today in an email and I love it so I thought I would share it..

Lights you are a sweetheart Thank you so much for your support I really need it now more than ever and I am sure God placed you in my life for a very good reason.

P.S. Saint Alimari, could you say a prayer for me and my P and my M too?

You got it honey,, and thanks for the ego boost .
I do say that thru all this and all of my pain and me being bold enough to love and forgive that I have a place in Heaven.
.... and so come what may I have faith that If I stand for what I believe in that God is smiling on me and he does bless me.
.... even when they are small blessings thru all of my pain, I rejoice in them.

I get down and feel low but ever since I was a little girl and felt all alone I knew he was there for me,, he is what keeps me strong when I am in agony and have felt like giving up. He is there for me thru this all and I must stand for what I believe in no matter what anyone else may say... ( My H and his ugliness sometimes make me want to give up but I will not)


I have done all I can and now I am ready to try and let go and give more,, my EGO has been placed away but I have come to realize that maybe my ego has still let me hold back for fear of being hurt but I will do my best these next few weeks to give more and if he cannot receive this gift then I will see where I need to go from there.I know now that he will be given this gift even if he may not take care of it but I wil take a chance and throw caution to the wind and see if he can love me the way I need him to,

I have read the 5 ll and I will open it up and read it again,, scary part is my H seems to be physical touch, quality time and words of affirmation too, ( sometimes I feel like I have a big order to fill )

....but most of all he always says show me you love me do not tell me you love me,,

so I cook for him and I show him I love him,, but he has said that he feels like I hold back and he really does not feel me.... ( so I need to work on this )
I have expalined ( not the book at all he does not believe in books, if he only knew a bok and this website helped save our M!!! ) that I love to hear how he feels and I love to hear ILY , he says I show you I love you..


So he is stuuborn I try to speak his love language but he sometimes lets me "starve " and I can only " fill " myself up with Quality time and him showing me,,,but like you said at least then I can try to understand that it is his way of showing me..



I have told him when he say he loves me it fills me up but I do not think he understands how much?!?

Thank you again lights you really made my day...
God bless...