I am trying to see where I am going and I think I just need to maybe step back and allow, I dunno.
I am feeling stronger and I want to keep feeling this way but sometimes he makes it hard. I realize we have come a long way and still have alot of work to do...
We have been reconciled for 3 months now and now it seems old patterns want to emerge,, I see that when he makes me feel toooooooooooooo much I want to retreat.
.. instead of move forward like I used to when I was in full db mode,,, this is not good.I must keep working on this and remember it will not happen overnite. I fel scared but must continue to move forward for my myself and for this M to survive. God bless...
