Ali I am really curious. I just feel as though your whole life is about your Husband not you. What do you do for yourself? I do understand what it means to love someone so deeply and commit your whole life to them. I have been in love with my Husband for about 22 years. But I think there also has to be a balance. It seems like you are always making amends and making the peace for what he does. Are you afraid to make him angry? I used to have that fear, especially in the worst part of my H's MLC. I was afraid that if I made him mad then I would have no chance left at restoration. But I was also getting more and more miserable inside being a freaking puppet and keeping my mouth shut so as not to disturb the sleeping monster. Piecing your marriage together is supposed to be the very thing that you were praying about and now you are walking on eggshells instead of being yourself. To thine own self be true.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
