I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Sometimes the light of day helps improve things and sometimes I think we just need to work through stuff. I'm struggling right now. Bombarded with OW stuff.
A friend sent me this in an email and I'm just trying to repeat it all day:
personally i think some things are best left in the past. move into the future that God has given your family.
I'm also looking at the note my husband left me today that includes the word "love," at the end even through I've been bratty these last two days with dark clouds of OW above my head.
Somehow just need to hang tough and work on thinking clearly (although I probably need a good kick in the butt!).
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.