Thanks you all for your support,, my H comes back on Sunday..
Today I spoke to him and had really good news about something that he had been worried about and when I spoke to him of it he said" I am tired I was about to take a nap..." and so he was dry with me on the phone. He seems stressed and he is on Vacation with his DAD...?
I dunno I think he worries toooo much @ everything,, I will pray for him.
Yes the DR. informed him to use them only during a panic attack.
I also have low grade anxiety,, it had been getting better, and it seems to be soooooooooooooooooooo high this week while he is gone cause I am trying so hard to get the house organized for myself and for him when he arrives,, our second Honeymoon,, and I slacked on keeping the house in tip top shape some,, plus we are self employed plus we got audited last year and this year hired Tax attorneys to help us .
Alot on our plate right now.
...so I want to have all that in order for when he returns so there is less on our plate and he can maybe "TRY " to be more relaxed.
I am doing well and not being worried @ "OW" all of to do list is keeping me occupied until like now when I have time to breathe. In my heart I do not feel woried @ "OW" so I pray my heart is right....
I have not sat down all day until now... I got alot of what I wanted to get done today done and tommorrow I plan to do more,, the house looks beautiful--- just about---- and I also cleaned his truck that he uses for work today.
I had 2 of my very close friends offer to help.. that was soo nice of them.
I thank you all for checking in on me and I will keep working hard this week and keep myself busy so I do not let my mind wander and get upset that maybe "OW" will try to go down to see my hubby.
I love him very much and I want us to get thru this tough time of his.. he is a very wonderful person he just needs to take it slower... and let go of alot of anger..
What feels so good to me is that I am being strong and I am not letting this get to me and I have not had one panic attack.....
...the anxiety I have felt these past few days is high,, I hope soon it will subside..
I am too much of a perfectionist and I am a little too hard on myself as well.
I am spring cleaning in October,, give me a break..LOL
But it has a dual purpose,, my H will come home to a extremely clean organized home and we will have more time together.
I also hope to get this Tax nightmare out of the way so that he/we will not have to be worried about that anymore.....
