That is really the amazing thing that it does feel so much sweeter even with the underlying pain I still feel. This feels better to me than when we first met,,, it feels real and genuine...it feels as though we are working towards the same thing and he respects me so much more.
When I was first letting go of all my bad behaviors that lead me down cheeseless tunnels it was actaully physically uncomfortable... like when he would go out with the "boys". normally I would get really upset and jealous and when he would leave in the past. ( trust issues , he cheated before)
And during our seperation and for sure reconciliation... I would work thru the feelings and now they are gone. Thank God I used to dread when he would go out cause I would get so panicked... the trust issue.... And when I did not act as before he would return Super Happy , even call me when he was gone!!!! and be so sweet to me... that was my reward and so I knew I was onto something.
It feels like I just got married for real this time . I bought the Book : Lies at the altar. By DR. Robin L. Smith at the beginning of my ordeal and I realized I was living a lie. It made me so sad and I realized I had so much work to do and so did he.How could I have lived for so long like that?
.... and when I sat down to read it AGAIN yesterday,,, cause Hubby stayed out of town,, And I had some free time!!! I realized I am now living in the truth. Fantastic. God bless...
