When I read your recent post, my heart was breaking for you. It's been over a year and a half since I found out, but if I let myself, I can still feel the intense pain of betrayal as well. There is not a day goes by STILL this much later that I do not think about his affair in some way. I wonder if there will ever be such a day for any of us?
The best days are when H is loving and attentive and I push the bad thoughts away. The worst are when he is preoccupied and not at all loving and I dwell on thoughts of the two of them.. The latter is such a miserable place to be. I have to force myself to think about good things (ref. Phillipians 4:8 if you are a believer) and remember that he chose ME and our marriage.
You are doing great. You will feel better as time passes. It truly is all about time passing. I remember when my pastor told me I wouldn't always hurt that bad. He was right, although it was hard to believe at the time.
YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!
God Bless, BethJ
H 40
Me 40
married 15 years
5 children aged 2-11
Bomb 2-6-05
Now we are piecing, I think
