Thanks Twist of Fate for your thoughts. I know a lot of the ugly stuff will eventually melt into history and slowly be forgotten. It just takes time and in the meanwhile there are moments of hyperfocus. That will eventually fade.
Right now things are going really well. My husband did have to fly out of town, and there's even a chance he might run into OW, but he has been so uncharacteristically loving and reassuring I have to trust that he'll keep in mind where his happiness is.
For the first time in many years, I actually feel loved by my husband.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
