Hi Jenny, You know me well by now so I will not pull my punches. Please don’t beat yourself up as a person. IMHO it is your focus, not you. Please go back and read your posts on just this latest thread. Are they all H and R focused or you focused? What happened to Jenny? Read your past thread – you were you focused then; you did not need H. That worked big time. Now that you have turned that corner in your stitch can it be that you are going back to focusing outside for happiness – and if so would that account for your new self-esteem concerns?
Please remember the drill – if it works keep doing it, if it does not work do something else. Please stop and assess. Forgive yourself? I don’t see much to forgive. Look within and focus there for your happiness – the outside world will respond; H will respond, or not. But you will end up in the better place and you will be in a better place to assess your feelings about H and other things as well.
This is a hard time – they call your forum “piecing” for a reason – results are slow and you are working on a jigsaw puzzle. You don’t know what the final real picture will be. Please stop working so hard on H and the R – time is still your ally. Focusing on something hard always results in pressure, even hidden pressure, for you and those around you. You do not need that.
(((((Jenny)))). You have come so, so far. Please don’t doubt yourself. We are all proud of you.
