Thanks for stopping by. We haven't been going to a MC, but it's on the to do list.
I hit a brick wall within myself yesterday so I'm trying to bounce back. I don't know exactly what it is, but mainly I just got real tired of it--the checking the phone records, the comments, the song she sang last night about a girl I have no interest in and me--but it's mainly that I perseverated on the meaning of all this. I mean, she's been half-way out the door twice since this came up, and she didn't even know if there was an affair. I just kept thinking that she was looking so hard so if she found something she could go. I know that it's my own attitude that sucks, but I couldn't help thinking that this says some bad things about her level of committment. I know she's hurting from this and is suspicious, but I still don't quite understand where she's coming from.
But, I decided yesterday, and haven't done much to get it underway, that I can only control what I do, I need to accept things as they are, and just proceed according to my own desires; meaning, that if I'm committed to this relationship then I should proceed accordingly, not worry about where she's at with this all. I can only strive to be a good partner to her. If it isn't enough, then it isn't enough. But moping around (which is what I'm doing still) and fretting about this, doesn't serve a useful purpose. I better get cracking.
Me
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
