No problem. I just wanted to clarify that my actions definitely put the impression in her mind.
The not defend yourself part is hard. How do you not defend when she says, "I don't believe you. I think more went on than you are telling me", or makes comments about the sex I had with this girl or "she probably stayed part of the night". It's hard not to say, "no, I told you everything. There is nothing going on with this girl. She didn't stay over. Why would I choose now to have an affair with her when I could have done all that when I was single?" There just isn't that great of a response.
But, I appreciate your comments and suggestions. I'll try my hardest to be patient. I have to atone for this and make it right. It's just hard. I think about months of this going on and I worry about what it will do to our relationship.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
