If you haven't already read it, I strongly suggest the book "Living with the Passive-Aggressive Man" by Scott Wetzler. When I was tearing my hair out trying to understand the "games" my ex played with me, I found this book very insightful and a great comfort. At least I knew that it wasn't all in my head. It pains me to see you so tormented after this long, but I think this book will shed some light on why.