cat and mouse...cat and mouse...why does it seem like my m is nothing more than a game of cat and mouse.

I give up...become distant bordering on living like he's not here and poof he starts making little attempts at getting my attention.

I never did like to hear people say "too little to late" but I'm really starting to understand the concept from a first hand vantage point.

It's just been so long that I think the cement has hardened too much to start removing bricks.

Am I saying that now because I unintentionally built a wall between us for my own protection am to blame? hells no!

I just feel like I've had enough but am becoming complaicant. Thing is I think h likes it that way. Trouble is he doesn't realize that it's a bad sign.

I know I'm not ready to make any moves so instead I just keep me happy and try not to wonder too much what the future will bring.

I do apprecite everyones replies...lots of things that made me go hmmmm to a point where I'm not exactly sure what to say. I could go point to point on things but that'd just be taking the red pill and though it may seem like I'm avoiding things and being what I don't want to be...hmmmm
well I guess the easiest way to explain it is this...last year I started going back to my c. After several visits I decided to stop going...realized it wasn't productive to sit with someone and realize my m wasn't working for me or looking like it was going to improve when I'm just not ready to do anything about it.

People can say that kids are resilliant especially when they are young. My parents didn't divorce until I was in my 20s and though it hurt I'm glad they made it through and I at least have childhood memories of family.

I don't know.

LL