W and I used to have a fantastic New Years tradition. Wow I miss that. Would sure like to bring it back. It was fireworks to ring in the new year (If you know what I mean)
Things are still good. She's at her sisters and I'm going over there shortly. She seems to be feeling me out a little lately. A little concerned that I might not want to go with her to her families I think. I was a little surprised at that. She's going to stay there tonight to catch up with her brother and I'm coming home. When I asked her if she planned to stay the weekend there she backpeddled at bit and let me know she'd most likely be home in the morning. Months ago she would have asserted her independence and freedom by staying gone for the weekend. I think that is very different now. She seems to have done a 180.
Last week she said something that has been just the slightest little bit of giving in to me. We were talking about people and their expertise in different fields. Many people assume that I have a high level of expertise in any field. Obviously that is not true. I have expertise in many things though because I love to learn. We were talking about how to select the right type of person to be my protege'. It's a tough question. So W says "Well take our late grandmaster for example, he was an expert in a few things but I certainly wouldn't go to him for marital advice. You though (Xue) have the ability to learn anything"
I was literally dumbfounded by the statement and socked it away for future thought. Couldn't process it at the time. But considering our sitch I think it's extremely relevant. Still a bit dumbfounded though. For two years now her opinion is that I'm beating a dead horse. She's got to admire my persistence even though it frustrates her. My giving her space has given her nothing to argue against though. But this slightest admission that I might know something about how to fix a broken relationship is monumental.
Of course I didn't say a word. Not one.
I guess I'll probably be a deer in the headlights when she comes back too.
