Quote: you must have just swept away about a million eggshells from under your feet
Yeah the difference in me is incredible. Anxieties and fears all gone. Obsessing over the sitch gone. For years it was a constant obsession, I forget about it once in awhile now.
Trouble is previously my desires were needs I guess. They were negative like I needed to draw from her. Now they are positive but incredibly strong. It was like before I wanted to suck energy from her, now I want to give it to her (really give it to her). Really an unexpected transition. Really hard to restrain.
Quote: whoops my baaaaad
Oh yeah, they been saying that for years.
Quote: god would I like to know what she was thinking when life went on like nothing happened were you drinking do you suppose she put it down to your drinking
Yeah me too. We were both drinking but I was being pretty careful. I was wondering if she didn't remember it but there's just no way. I think she's just holding on to ideas that don't make any sense to hold onto. But I think she's having a harder and harder time of it.
She tells a story about going to her doctor years ago. Her doctor is overweight and out of shape. He was giving her health and fitness advice which she was listening intently to when she realized he was also eating a jelly doughnut. She decided at that time she was listening to the wrong person about health and fitness. I see a parrallel here with the evil C. I just can't see it any other way at this point. We've both grown immensely and are still growing but things are damn good between us except for one thing and there just doesn't seem to be any reason for it.
180?
I don't think I can help but 180 the way I feel. Everything is different.
